Crush on Your Best Friend – Take I

by Abinayah Mannar Mannan on September, 2009

in Relations

Best Friends

They call it a crush, don’t they? – No wonder.

For that’s how you feel when your mate doesn’t reciprocate your feelings.

Our friendship blossomed many years ago, a beautiful feeling indeed.

Memories from the past often keep flashing in my mind, and it has left me totally frail. Tears keep rolling down my cheek and I feel how weak my heart has become.

We were close, weren’t we?

You shared your secrets with me, didn’t you?

I was there with you through thick and thin, didn’t I?

We shared the same views and convictions.

We thought along the same wavelength too. I cared so much for you and so did you.

But why is it that you never feel all those emotions that I underwent.

When I gaze into your eyes, I know that all my dreams would come true.

When I hear your voice, I know that I am safe and secure.

When I feel your presence, I know the contentment that brims my heart.

But when I think of your thoughts about me, why don’t I see anything except a bare reflection.

The sparkle in your eyes, the truth in your smile, the affection in your words and the concern in your thoughts has transformed me-Totally.

But when I see you with another, my heart groans and bleeds in agony. But the worst part is when I tried to force a smile, when you brought her to me and introduced me as your best friend and her as your girlfriend.

The days that ensued, left me weeping, in the dark alleys of self- pity and I was totally helpless. T’was the pain that told me that I was still alive.

My life seems to be a dying ember as I try to remember all of the happy bliss.

Staying in touch am glad, Yet I realize that I am in a room of darkness,

Though I have candles around me.

Who are you? Where are you from? I don’t know.

But I love you.

You are the best, at any point. A Permanent resident of my heart community.

My Love!

Oh! What can mend that hole in my heart, I still don’t know. Life has its own twists and turns and my life is no exception. Love is not a fairy tale to end, “They all lived happily ever after.” Thus I end here with a sad note and a heavy heart.

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Vishal June 19, 2010 at 11:23 am

good fertile imaginations . Learn to add more life – emotions by using more rich words

Vishal June 19, 2010 at 11:23 am

good fertile imaginations . Learn to add more life – emotions by using more rich words

King Sidharth June 21, 2010 at 7:25 am

hey!
Thanks so much!